My forever

  • So as I scroll through my dash of an infinite swarm of "AWE!" "OOOH!" and "UNF" I begin to ponder my lackluster existence. And then it dawns on me like the rising sun..............................."ITS MY OWN FUCKING FAULT!".............duh

The Crying

So. The Crying has yet to commence. I have been in recovery from addiction for over a year, with only a slip, or two, or three, and all I want is to cry. I just want a sobbing, wet, emotional, genuine cry. I pray for it. I just want this feeling of sadness, despair, self loathing, and self hatred to disappear. I hate who I have become. Please, just once, for the love of MY almighty, let my dams break. Let the salt flow. Cry little one. Cry unto my hearts content.